I think I’m confused
My deepest soul is
fading and disappearing
Two people talking
One showed me how to love
Another one told me
You gotta clean them
That’s why people called them
Angel and demon
Good versus evil
I’m afraid to face them
I’m suffering
That’s what happened
Every night I have been
tortured by pain
We should try to give
people more love
Not my business
We don’t have any right to judge
He’s definitely trying to
make up a lie for us
I’m good with the quit
and strove with none
I’ll be the greatest
I don’t care the money
and the fame
I’m gonna buy the fancy
clothes drive the fastest cars
More than 700 days
I’ve been taking a long
rest but I feel more tired
Tryna calm but sometimes
art’s come from my anger
I believe in
Always showing love but
I know I’m a liar
Tryna control violence in my head
But still wanna clean that
Have you ever doubted your faith
And tryna raise a few questions
God hath leaden feet
but iron hands
That’s why I’m confused
All I see is a lot of people
their own life has been taken
I’m not a Christian but for
somehow I’m praying
People gotta show
their true love forever
Ok I’m done I feel calm
Just wanna ask you something
Things you’ve
told me I found it
But why is that all wrong
I’m confused
I wonder why the truth is gone
When I need someone to save me
Why don’t you respond
Now you blame me for
I’m losing soul and faith
Tell me what’s the price
for being a human I gotta pay
I’m not done yet
I know there’s something
beautiful I gotta find it
I don’t believe in destiny
There’s only judge and punish
如果要杀死一个人
只能选择用一种凶器
让他带着愧疚活着会比利刃更加锋利
选择逃离将我自己封闭
仅存的善意正审视着我并发出抗议
蜷缩在那沙发边的缝隙
等待着倒计时
等待着最后被迫放弃
面对这突如其来的痛击
我无法接受现实
此刻显得无比抗拒
盯着破碎不堪的屏幕
投影出我做错的脸
深呼吸以后
习惯性地闭上我没落的眼
安慰自己
人性有错落的面
戒不掉的懦弱
我一次又一次堕落地捡
默默地演
演一条落魄的犬
种种行为都幼稚得像
是个未破的茧
没兑现过的言
没能赶上最后一面
算来算去后悔是
否来得太过多了点
所以 我试着去弥补这些事呢
去习惯被人怒吼
去习惯被人弃舍
去习惯被人遗忘
去习惯无能为力
想要保护她
奈何我只是个可悲的戏子
是的
我全部通通记得
曾经选择忘记的
我现在选择记得
我现在把我自己剖开
希望你感到赤诚而不是感到赤裸
我曾经讲出谎言
试图躲入那些个假话
我曾经想要得到同情
把多处的痛苦夸大
我曾经眼睁睁的看着
多数的人被打压
我曾经目睹这一切后做
多数人做的哑巴
我曾经面对珍视的事说不
说无伤大雅
后来也会想方设法去拖住
某一个刹那
我曾经为了让她开心
说出编出的大话
最后没能兑现她告诉我说
没事的 傻瓜
曾经逃避那些挫折
把错误怪罪给爸爸
曾经把愤怒的情绪过度地
带给了妈妈
曾经看着她痛哭后
被错付的情绪夹杂
他们看我的眼神
从充满爱意到充满了害怕
讲到这些犯过的错
泪流得不止
我无法挽回这一篇篇
无法回头的故事
每一次叫醒自己告诫自己
最后也如此
讲出些伪善的借口
随后又感到很无耻
我的神啊
我无法分清我的善伪
但是你能否听到我的这
一句句忏悔
每一次失去后来的反悔
这马后炮的嘴脸现在
让我感到反胃
很惭愧
我真心感到惭愧
躲在角落不敢面对的我
像个残废
Wake up wake up
wake up and fight
我不想他们再次
为了我悲伤而含泪